...Brings Me Joy

Hot Chocolate
 
A good Book
 
Soul stirring music
 
Watching my little sister meet her accomplishments
 
A good, can't breathe, holding my belly laugh
 
A night out with my BFF (no kids, no hubby)
 
Fitting into my old clothes that I have not been able to fit in a year
 
Hearing my 5 year old son read (Gives me goosebumps)
 
Giving away my son's too little but not worn out clothes
 
An ice cold Pepsi (I'm trying to kick this though)
 
The Book of Proverbs - I am studying the book of Proverbs for the month of December.  I am reading and journaling about this book.  I have never studied the Bible like this before.  Waking up in the morning to have quiet time with God and the Bible has given me such a sense of peace. I skipped this weekend due to laziness and I felt the difference.  I was off kilter.  It's like it be calling me man.
 
My son, my sweet pea, my baby boy brings me more joy than I ever knew was possible.  I never thought I would me a mother.  I am too much of a loaner and way too moody but God had other plans.  I was not one of those gushy baby talk pregnant people.  I was going through hell with his dad and was scared out of my mind about motherhood.  I did not think I would be able to raise a child but I was trying to stay cool and calm.  I was raising my sister but she was 12 when I started.  He was born and my life changed, the mother in me was born.  I fell in love with this little guy.  He is my love. He is my heart outside of my body.  The fear I had about being a mom went away when I stepped into my womanhood and let myself grow up.  I became his protector, his teacher, his comforter, his guide and many more things.  I call myself MamaBear because I will fight through any fire to protect my son.  Even though he is a HANDFUL, I thank God for him.