Go on in the room, girl.

I have this room in my house that is full of boxes from when I moved here. I have been in my house for 2 years so that is kind of depressing it its self. I have gone in that room to organize and purge but I haven’t ever really got it done.


Sunday I wasn’t feeling good. I had a headache that would come and go no matter how much water I drank or what little meds I took. (I really hate to take meds for a headache. If anyone has any natural remedies, hit me up). I think for the most part I was just irritated and tired but could not go to sleep. Ty was bugging me so I put him to works since he was so bored. I gave homeboy the vacuum and when he was done with that I put him to work folding his towels and socks. While he was doing that I decided to put in some work in this room. I finally have a vision for this room, more on that later. So I go in here and begin going through stuff and deciding what to put in the garage and what stays inside. I grab my old journals and start to look through them. I read and read and laugh. I keep reading and say “oh girl you were a dumb ass”. I read and “say awww, I miss my mommy”. The point here is I kept reading through all the bad and the good. There were so many times that I tried to read them or go through this stuff and I could not, the memories were just too painful. Did I still cringe at some of the things I read, yes? But I could also read some things that I wrote about my son’s dad and actually smile and laugh. That is so big for me. THAT IS SO BIG FOR ME!!!!

I am delighted that I have made this progress. I know God is preparing me for something and I will be ready when it occurs. I will not be weak, cower and bend in fear. Progress feels amazing!!!