A Valuable Lesson...

This past weekend I went out with my friends to celebrate my birthday. Yeah I believe in celebrating for as long as I can. We ended up going to this spot that is a restaurant by day and a club by night. I set out wanting to go somewhere that had a grown folk vibe. From the people that told me about this place, I thought this was it. EHHHHH! Wrong answer. We get there and there are all these kids. Of course they were not kids because they had to be over 21 but to me…they were kids. We weren’t going to leave b/c it took us hours to get there thanks to an argument with my bff and her hubby. That is a tale for another time. I feel sorry for these boys coming up today because these chicks do not know how to keep themselves up. There were bellies and ill shaped breasteses hanging out all everywhere. Yuck.


The last time I went to a club was umpteen years ago. And when I went I always felt out of place. Either I felt insecure because of feeling like I was the fat girl in the club or I felt too tall in my heels. It was always something. Even when I went to my ex’s club and I was VIP, something just felt off.

It is wonderful to be able to gauge your progress with things. It is so strange for this trip out to be the thing that has let me know how far I have come in regards to how I feel about myself. I was surrounded by all of these youngstas but they were not my concern. I was comfortable with myself so I had a good time. I wore an off the shoulder shirt that was out of my comfort zone but I looked good and I loved it.

I have always been the quiet shy girl then woman who felt like I didn’t fit in. I may not fit in anyone’s box but I fit in my skin by just being who I am. And finally I am starting to like who I am.