The Letters

This letter is to me 10 years ago at 23 years old. 

Hey Sweetie…Things are about to get really scary right now.  I want you to know that you are strong enough to get through this.  I know it may seem like the world is collapsing around you but you will get through this.  Pray and pray often.  Don’t pray like you are a wayward child speaking to her punishing parent but pray like you are speaking to the parent that loves you and wants the best for you.  God loves you. 

You seem to have this habit of boomeranging yourself between these two men.  Why are you doing this? What are you looking for? They cannot give you what you are looking for.  You have to validate your own self worth.  These men showing interest in you does not make you.  One guy is the fall back when the other disappears.  He doesn’t deserve this.  You don’t deserve this.  You are so beautiful and smart.  Did you hear what I said honey??? You are beautiful inside and out.  Act like the queen I know you are. 

You know deep down inside that this relationship is not meant to last.  You have said that you feel like you are going in circles with this man and you are.  If you choose to stay you will be given the best gift that you could ever experience.  It is not what you are striving for but it is so much better than anything you could ever imagine. 

Like I said before, life is about to change.  You will feel lost but just hold on.  Hold on to your family and your friends that love you.  And know this in the times when you think you are all alone, you really aren’t.  And when you think that you are broken, you will heal. 

I love you and I will always be there for you.